“Oh, why the sad face, dear? I can’t control all of my fears. It’s 5 am and I have to go. The wind is tearing up my eyes. We know, we know. Friends tell me I look so dead. I think they’re seeing through my disguise, they know.” – DPR IAN x PEANUT BUTTER & TEARS (2023)
I simply don’t understand the need to blame Conrad for everything. The reason the angst between Belly and Conrad is so good it’s because it’s partially both of their faults I feel like for Conrad he did not have the energy or the mental capacity to fight for Belly because of everything that was going on in his life that does not mean that he wanted to break up with her. That does not mean that he doesn’t love her or that he did not want to fight for her I think when he said I can’t he really just did not have it in him to be the partner that he knows she deserves. There really is a thing where it’s right person wrong time, and Conrad does not have the capability to be a good boyfriend right now. I don’t know how anyone can look at Conrad and see how sad broken & just exhausted he looks and not understand that he’s not capable of being in a relationship at the moment. I think the tragedy of it all is if they were older Belly could have seen the signs and understood what was happening. But at the end of the day they were both so young and ill equipped to handle the emotional toll something like grief can take.
This was so well said. Grief is hard at any age, in any relationship. It changes everything in your life, especially for a kid losing their parent in this way. And I saw a tag that mentioned that Belly is also grieving, the loss of a life time friend, her second mom, and now someone she is that first time, raw, desperate in love with, and that first heart break is life altering when paired with all the rest.
They don’t have any kind of maturity to be dealing with all of this on top of trying to love each other in the right way. But that’s why I love them so much, because there’s so much realism in their relationship. Them finding their way back to each other is so beautiful because of all they’ve had to over come, how much they had to grow, how certain they had to be that they could be worthy of each other.
This show is cheesy and goofy but the themes are legitimately incredibly deep and carry an extraordinary amount of weight. No one is sunshine and rainbows all the time. Grief is real and it can make people and things ugly.
Our story began when he was 22 years old. I once buried my feelings towards him worried that someone else might find out. I worked hard to become a better person to match his pace. And when I finally caught up to him, that’s when I knew that I wasn’t the only one running. He was running towards me too. In these five whole years, I healed his trauma. He gave my bittersweet first love a happy ending. Our story began when he was 22 years old. And it came to an end when I was 22 years old.
not to go all cringe on main but fictional characters have genuinely helped me through some of the worst shit in my life n i’ll forever be grateful to fiction for giving me comfort when i’ve needed it most
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